July 17, 2013
About the time we think we have God all figured out…something grasps us that teaches us otherwise. We have to be so careful when we pin God to the wall declaring his absolute ways absolutely.
Carlo Carretto described how God seems to reveal himself to us in ways not quite like what we are looking for. He says:
“…I began to discover how God goes about what he is doing, I began to distinguish his stealthy footsteps.”
Carretto goes on:
I was thirsty for presence, so , in order to stretch out my desire, he presented himself as absence. Therefore, I was obliged to purify my faith and tell him I believed in him, not out of self-interest, but out of love. I was thirsty for his light and truth, so he presented himself in darkness.” (Emphasis mine)
Not only does God reveal himself in what we often think strange ways, but he seems to do that for a reason. God wants us to feel his presence in the emptiness or the tragedy of life as well as the fullness and the joy.
If all of our desire for God is self-interest we often have a difficult time finding him. God wants our attention because we love him. Accept the things that we don’t understand as part of life in a broken world…loving God whether we feel his presence…or not.
Carretto writes of God:
“I shall be present, and you will not see me; I shall be your lamp, and you will not realize it; I shall embrace you, and you will not feel anything. ‘Then I shall know truly whether you love God because he is God, or whether you love him because he is the solution to your problems.’”
God says that if we seek him we will find him…we just have to be aware that God may show himself through the darkness or even the feeling of absence…